A perfect summer romance....

Everything was going all right,the way it was supposed to,and then they met..she was with her friends,he was with his gang jamming on the beach..their eyes met,she was looking pretty ,her soft curls were loosely tied ,the soothing summer breeze making them fall on her face,she did not try hard to move them away,as she was lost listening to the guitar he was playing,she was feeling something she never experienced before,yes she had many lovers..but this was extra-ordinary,it felt like every line of that song was touching somewhere deep inside of her..and the way he was looking at her,while singing..she felt like there were only two of them,as if it was meant to be..they knew each other forever..there was no need for any introduction ..any explanation..

she knew it will not go anywhere,and she was not a person who would just go all the way for the sake of  intimacy,and she came out of a relationship just a year back..a bad one ,and the scars were still unhealed..she knew it was a time to move on,but she was not ready..the music ended and all the people gathered there stood up,applauding..and she somehow left that place,none of her friends noticed,but his eyes were fixed on her and he tried searching for her inside the crowd..but she was not there...

and then they met again,at first she wanted and tried her best to avoid him,but when two hearts connect,all efforts go wasted..slowly they started seeing each other,her heart pounded fast whenever he was with her..they shared silence more than they shared words..just being with each other,walking,hand in hand..whenever he embraced her,she melted in his arms..when they kissed,she felt blessed...

just thinking about him gave her immense pleasure..it was an out of the world experience for her,talking over phone...he made her feel like a teenager...deep inside her heart she knew this will not go any-where..they were from two different worlds,he was not someone she sees herself being with in future and so she tried best to remain sane,but she just could not help it..


then the vacation was over..they met for the last time..exchanged numbers,but....could not talk much..what was there to say?they both had seen lives and knew this was in store,and now the time has come to let go...slowly life will follow its normal course and they will survive,new people will come..newer romances...this was something they had to do..so they kissed one last time...as long as they could...and went their separate ways...will they meet again?life will tell...for the time being they need to continue living their lives,playing their parts and maybe praying for their paths to cross again,when  they may decide to be together forever...this was just not one of those times...

BEGINNING of an END...........

As I set my foot on the pedestal of a new chapter of my life all together,a question seems to bug me...what are all the things that I am giving up...and what are the things I am going to get...and is it really worth it..?is it what I should be doing?and somewhere,I know that the possible answer is a big NO...I for one,have always been a person scared of making bold decisions when the price at stake is my career,and as a result of choosing the most convenient decisions,finally have landed a job in an IT company like 90% of B.TECH PASS OUTS...and consequently because of that will be leaving my beloved home,people and the city I have always lived in all my life...in a way,I feel good as this is how I wanted things to be...in an other way,feel scared...excited...and so many mixed-up emotions difficult to explain...

I now realise,every new beginning has its obvious ending...and similarly every ending has another potential beginning....our lives,each and every moment,continue reminding us this fact through so many examples and signs...some we capture and hold......some go overlooked,unnoticed..and we continue living..

I have always been a believer of signs,and made so many wrong decisions because of that...always taken chances on wrong people..but then..maybe,I missed the more stronger and meaningful signs and chose to believe the convenient ones..ones that made me relaxed..gave me momentarily happiness..and then later on left me shattered and hopeless..

But I also know,that when we have nothing left to lose,there is no fear of losing either......and starting to gain is the only way out..life has always been a story of "survival of the fittest" and who am I to not abide the law?

What is the conclusion of this write-up/blog-post???well,unlike my previous ones,this does not have any..because I still am confused..if it is the beginning or the end.....and the kid inside me wants to have both somewhere somehow...its like watching that photograph in which u can not tell if it is a sunrise or sunset,as it captured the brief moment of one,which exactly looks like another of the other...